December 2008
19 posts
i am realizing that i do not know if i will ever get married. seems like that people around me are getting to that point in their life. not only that, every girl i ever meet has only wanted nothing serious. just some one to kill their time till something better comes around. only one girl i ever loved, and i wonder if i still do. i miss a relationship like the one i had with Danielle. i...
do not,
do not take tylonol on real low sleep and an empty stomach. i had to take some to get to sleep last night and i woke up shaking. freaky stuff.
i wrote so much poetry today. i am so proud of myself. finally i feel confident as a poet. thank you Mr. Ginsberg and Mr. Kerouac for inspiring me to keep writing.
today was great though. i met Paula and Ruby for pancakes. i drove over and hour to get there cause of the crappy roads, but it was so worth it. it was real nice you know? cause in my past so many people have blew me off and been real...
i love snow. i don’t care what people in Michigan think about it, i think its rather lovely.
she lost conrtol again,
i really need out of my house. my family meaning, my parents, we just don’t get along. i love them yes, but i mean when you’re living in a home where all you get is a cold shoulder and a feeling of desolation and void, its time to leave. whats more lame is i cannot be myself. how i wish i could be myself around them. but i would rather not get yelled at 24/7. i have really bad memories...
i am currently sitting in the photography department in a bathroom and pajamas. EPIC.
“when you’re looking at life in a strange new room, maybe drowning soon, is...”
– Joy Division-Exercise One.
i feel like this a lot somtimes cause i feel so lonely at moments. it’ll be there then it’l fade. i hate it. depression sucks. but i know somehow God’s gonna use me to do wonderful things.
most likely i am going to have pull an all nighter at school. and i have a brilliant idea. at 8:00 at school i changing into my pajamas, slippers, and my amazing house coat. it is going to be so bitchin’. you have no idea. since i need a place to sleep in my darkroom i am bringing a sleeping bag for my dakroom a couple of south park boxed sets to watch when i’m done. i am so pumped.
i seriously get so hyped every time i read anything by Jack Kerouac.
i always laugh when an ex girlfriend is bad mouthing me. finally i think i’ve reached that point where i just don’t care when people bad mouth me anymore. i mean really why waste time worrying about it? there are more important things to do and i’d rather be myself you know? but still i get a kick out of it. call it odd, but i’ve been starting to learn to laugh stuff off....
my friend scott and i were talking and we were making jokes about hitting on girls at CCS and him coming to hit on girls there. and we made a discovery. so epic. so amazing. its like finding life on mars. and this is what we discovered. the hipster girl race is very attractive. 99.9% .
tell all your friends.
today is the day i have posted the most on this thing. which is interesting cause i went through a long period where i didn’t update on tumblr. but as of lately i’ve been feeling really really lonely. every time i see someone i find attractive i get real discouraged. mainly cause of what people have said to me. and i have had some real shitty things said to me in relationships. for...
